wow

Time keeps on ticking, ticking, ticking... into the future. Been busy building my private practice and growing this little one inside me. Such a crazy wonderful time.

baby signs

I'm totally going to teach my baby sign language. Maybe I should teach Greg, too.

oh baby

I am so blessed and grateful that my pregnancy has been uneventful thus far. Besides some minor "ickies" like heartburn and difficulty feeling comfortable through a full night sleep, it is really a wonderful experience. All the tests keep coming back with good results and I feel completely at ease with the whole process. Of course, there are also enjoyable things like pregnancy dreams.

My wonky dreams have touched on different topics:

An entire dream about a waffle iron that was half flat, missing the lovely little waffle craters

Another entire dream about undercooked rice pilaf

One about Harry Connick, Jr. having a crush on me

In another one, a woman was re-insulating my attic. (In real life, she went to my elementary school when we were kids.) The attic was huge, much larger than the house's footprint, and there was a huge picture window that was rotting out and letting in tons of rain water despite it being sunny outside.

My most recent dream involved me spontaneously deciding to run a 10K without any training. All the while I was thinking, "this is probably not a good idea while pregnant," yet I kept running.

One hundred and fifty two days until my estimated due date. That's a whole lot of opportunity for a whole lot of wonky pregnancy dreams.

get a job???

I must admit that I allow myself to get triggered by the averring of those people with jobs to the unemployed to "GET A JOB!" I'm not looking to complain or whine, but only to open some peoples' minds and possibly foster some empathy towards people that are struggling.

Here's my story:

I was not only working my last full time job for three years, but I was also working on day a week in a private therapy office renting space. Having purchased a home much further away from the full time job, I started searching for, and found, a job in the county that I reside. I did the right thing and put in my required four week notice at my full time job. Well at the three week mark, the new job offer was rescinded.

I requested to extend my resignation to give myself a cushion to continue job searching but the agency did not allow it. Fortunately, at the private group practice I was renting space at, the income was good. I continued my job search for a full time work but at least there was some income for me. Then that office I was renting was no longer available for rent.

I have continued my job search, started renting an independent therapy office, I have registered with two temp agencies, I am sending out copies of my resume to openings every week and even pounding the pavement for seasonal work. I have three college degrees and a solid work history. Does any of this sound lazy to you?

I still have no job. The temp agencies haven't had much. The private therapy practice is growing slowly but not yet covering the cost of my rent and additional insurance so I am not even breaking even. I am considered over-qualified for seasonal work that I am very willing to do. Then there is the fact that, though employers are not legally allowed to discriminate or be swayed against pregnant applicants, it's more difficult for a pregnant woman to get hired.

So, when you say or re-post those "Get a job" sentiments think first because it can be perceived as hurtful. Being unemployed and unable to find work to provide for your family despite trying is a difficult situation to handle. So please don't criticize and make assumptions about us. Are there lazy people in this world? Of course there are. Some of them are even employed and don't do squat while at their jobs, but I assume by your posts that they probably have value to you because they've got a job.

Get a job? I'm trying.

things that i don't understand

I just don't get:
The excitement of the Twilight movies.

Stealing from others.

Hatred of other religions.

Adopting an animal only to neglect or abuse it.

Not wanting to help others.

The appeal of sunbathing.

The Jerry Springer Show.

People that get upset over another person being vegetarian/vegan.

People that enjoy washing dishes.

Those that couldn't fall in love with a puppy.

Getting messy drunk.

People that don't enjoy the outdoors.

Going to the store on Black Friday.

Needing the newest/best/most technologically advanced products out there.

Not liking pumpkin desserts.

There are plenty more things I don't understand, but these are the ones that are on my mind right now.

when i conceived...

...I was still bringing in some regular income and I couldn't conceive of being broke. Now I'm job hunting while pregnant. Eek! What a scary place to be indeed. The good thing is, going scary places, whether a physical location or a situational one, helps us grow. When we stay in a place that is safe, we safely stay the same. That is not necessarily a bad thing if you like the person you have already become. But when life throws you a scary situation, revel in the fact that you will get through it and be better for the experience.

tut tut, It looks like rain

Double dose of "dang, people are idiots."

Yes, this 22 year old,

while driving drunk and wearing this t-shirt,

rammed a police car.

Keeping it classy, I tell you.