Friday, August 24, 2007

old pics force at 11

I finally had to give in and actually pay for a pro account on I knew this day would arrive, but I wanted to postpone that day as long as possible. Not that it cost a lot of money or anything, it's just that, well, why pay for something when you do not have to? That only lasts for so long until you have to pay up (hmmm, is flickr like a drug dealer hooking photographic junkies????) It was old pictures that "made me do it" to boot. I had not uploaded anything in a few days because I have not had a moment to take pictures this week. (Really rough week at work, you have no idea....well, unless I already told you about it, then you do have an idea.)

"So, why is it so important for me to have a bigger flickr account anyway?" you ask. Yeah, I know, I know, you don't really care but I am going to tell you anyway. Stop reading here if you truly couldn't care less. If you have an inkling of curiosity, read on:

Good, now that the uninterested people are gone..... Many years ago (back in high school), in a land far, far away (NY), I was a bright-eyed, eager and creative artist/art major. I had plans on attending art school and continuing my creative life as a means of income and fulfillment with utter enjoyment. That was until twists and turns of my life's path commenced during my first semester at college. I took one elective class that inspired me enough to change my major away from art and alter the course of my life as I had planned it. More years of twists and turns, as well as faltering confidence in my skills (that's a whole other blog) I strayed further from my creativity. (How the hell does this apply to flickr, Melissa. Come on and get to the point!) About a year ago, I decided that enough was enough, It was time to start dipping my feet back into the pool of my personal artist pond. I then was lucky enough to acquire my dad's hand me down digital camera. I just began playing around with it and, as I have mentioned before, really found joy in taking pictures. Over this past year I have started to overcome this self-imposed safety barrier that stopped me from allowing myself to be vulnerable. As a therapist, I am often encouraging clients to head towards places in themselves where they are vulnerable, so I decided to apply that to myself as well. That is the reason I signed on for a flickr account in the first place; as one way of putting my stuff out there and being uncomfortable in a healthy way. I am loving it and now that I have reached my limit of uploads, it was time to upgrade. This is important to me and I think the mental/artistic/expressive benefits are worth the expense of a pro account, don't you think?

1 comment:

Mercie said...

Good for you for committing to your art. You can't ignore that part of life--obviously you know that though. I don't know what to do with my life for a real job, but the art has to stay, good or bad.

Your pics are great!